My Sophomore Year

“The difference between school and life? In school, you're taught a lesson and then given a test. In life, you're given a test that teaches you a lesson (Tom Bodett).”

My sophomore year has been an experience in the making. I felt like this year I've grown up so much. This year I finally realized that I’m going to be an adult soon. It was time to start breaking my stupid, childish habits and to start making responsible decisions. For a while, I’ve been dragging my feet and started to get in a lazy habit. I realized at the beginning of sophomore year that in a few short three years I’m going to be in college. That means that I need to work my but off so that I can get into any college of my dreams.

“Dreams are like stars...you may never touch them, but if you follow them they will lead you to your destiny (Unknown).”

This year I finally found my calling, the health field. To be more specific my goals are to become a Physician Assistant. So this year, whenever an opportunity presented itself to further help me down the road, I grabbed that opportunity and ran with it. I know that sometimes people are too young to know what to do for the rest of their lives, but I say they’re wrong. If you can dream it, you can achieve it. No matter how dorky that sounds. From the quote above I’ve learned this year that dreams can sometimes so far away they seem impossible. I think that if you can take the right steps that you’re dream can be a long, bumpy road away.

I use to think that teachers didn’t know what they were talking about and that there’s no point of tests. I mean seriously how is knowing the radius of a circle going to help me in my future? I think I finally realized that they just teach me and it’s up to me to figure out how I am going to use it in my life. This year I’ve learned patience and I’ve realized that while I’m on my way to my dreams that it won’t hurt me hearing about net ionic compounds in Chemistry.
I can finally see the little picture and the big picture. I can see so much more now that I’ve learned to see outside the small picture I stand in and the big picture I’m walking in to. With the help and support of family and great friends I can achieve anything. The path is bumpy, long, with obstacles in the way but that’s okay. I’ve learned this year that the people in your life don’t get in your way; they’re only trying to help you. I’ve also learned about karma and positive energy. So if my friends and family can help me on my journey there’s no reason that I can’t help them willingly. In the end I feel rewarded just by their presence and their joy that comes from me helping.

This year I’ve not only learned about myself, I’ve also learned about my family. The difficulties it took for them to get here and the work and struggles it took to stay here. When I hear about all of their hardships, and what they’ve suffered, I became aware that my problems were tiny compare to everyone else. It made me realize that just because I’m tired from staying up, I should be grateful that I had somewhere to sleep.

This is a year I’ll never forget. The reason why is because the most important thing I've learned is to become the better person I know I am. I’ve opened myself up to the world and now it’s time to start embracing it. I may be tired and hungry from getting up so early, but that feeling is great. It’s just a little sacrifice I have to make to get to my dreams. I feel with my heart and soul that I’m on the right path. Whether I’ll end up there is up to me. I don’t know where I’m going but I’ve learned from my path that at anytime I can change it.

Who Am I?

Who am I? I am so many things just not one word can describe me. I am a person. I feel. I touch. I learn. I love. I have emotions. I'm the person who does what she is told. I am a daughter, a sister, a niece, a cousin, someone's friend, a student, and a child trying to find her place in this world. I have a life to be grateful for, dreams that I will reach and a family and friends to catch me when I fall. I can be many things also. I could be a doctor, a surgeon, a lawyer, a mom or a wife. I can be or will be so many things if I get a chance.

I try to be very unique. I have a mind that sees the picture of life. I see things more openly than others might. I have a mind that is so intelligent and will use it when no one thinks I will. I have dreams that people think are far out of my reach but I will prove that I can reach them by doing it.

My dreams are dreams that people think are impossible and sometimes silly, but can be reached easily with my hard determination. I dream of knowing my place in this world. I dream of going to the best college and becoming a pediatric nurse or a charge nurse. I dream of having a successful job, complete with a nice car and a large house after paying off medical school loans. I dream of having a faithful husband and respectful children. I dream that my sisters will be successful in life without too many difficulties. I dream that my mother will succeed without anyone's help. I dream that I will have a life without too many difficulties as well. I also dream that I will be loved unconditionally.

I love so many things in life. The one thing I love the most is ME. If I don't love me, then how can I take care of myself or love anyone else? I love my family and my friends because they are my life support. I love music because it can change my mood instantly. I love TV because there are so many great TV shows, such as One Tree Hill, GossipGirl, 90210, All My Children, One Life To Live, and Supernatural. I love food especially hamburgers and french-fries with a Dr. Pepper or a Sunkist. I love California because I was born there. I love the warm air there and especially the beach because you can sit there and let all your worries be released. I love to read books in the sun because you escape to that place that the book is describing. The best books I have read are the Twilight Series, the Gossip Girl Series and the A-List Series. I mainly love life. Although there are many things I hate in life.

Things I hate in life would have to be my father because he could never support our family. I hate war because it is unnecessary and very hurtful to our world. I hate global warming because it causes the temperature to get very hot and very cold. I hate the cold because there's no purpose for the cold. I hate spiders because just like the cold they have no purpose unless you need to scare the hell out of someone or want to have poison injected into your body and be in pain. These things would have to be the top five things I hate mainly in life.

There are many keys to success sometimes they can be right under your nose and not know how it helped you. A main key to success are the people who make up the family you have created. Your education can be a big factor in success because it helps you not be so ignorant to the world out there. The one factor to success that is hidden, is trying to find your purpose in life because once you know your purpose, you can go out of the way to show everybody else.

So that's who I am. I am a person. I feel. I touch. I learn. I love. I have emotions. I'm the person who does what she is told. I am a daughter, a sister, a niece, a cousin, someone’s friend, a student, and a child trying to find her place in this world. I will reach the goals I have set in life to become a successful, happy and loving person that everyone knows I am. Hopefully you know me just a little bit better.

Wisdom Quotation

"If we lie, and the people we lie to lie back to us, what's the truth? (O'Donoghue, Maureen)"

Lying- the deliberate act of deviating from the truth.

As human beings we go through our days telling lies. Whether we realize it or not or whether we want to or not. It sometimes comes out as easily as breathing. We tell lies to cover things up, to tell people what we think we want to hear. You know what's horrible about that. You tell lies to people to get their reactions but what we all forget is that their reactions are just lies that they don't even know that they're telling us.

Most of the time we tell lies to get us through the day. We lie about what we think. We lie to ourselves how we feel. What we think we believe in. We just can't help it because we've gotten so use to it.

How do we even pick up lying? I think it starts with our parents. They tell us so many lies that it clouds our vision. They tell us lies that their parents told them. They tell us how Santa Claus, the Easter Bunny, and the Tooth Fairy are all real. You know what? When we're older and have children we'll tell them these same lies. Why? Who knows. Maybe it's like we tell them lies because we know deep down as children we were happy when these lies were told to us.

You really want to know something? Lies don't fix anything. At least not in the long run. We say everything's fine. You know what? It's not fine. It's never ever going to be fine. If we can't see that then what are we seeing. From all of the lies we tell and people tell back we might as well be upside down, or on another planet. As long as theirs lies in this world we're so far from the actual truth.

What's the worst thing that can happen? People see or hear the truth. That blanket that's covering their eyes from all of those lies gets thinner? If we tell the truth today then you get to know the truth and not truth that forms from the lies.

An Animal For A Day

If I could be anyone or anything for a day I would be an animal, a dog to be more specific. They get to do whatever they want for the whole day. They have such an open mind to the world around them. They never seemed to bother at what will happen next to them. They're much like free spirits that touch our lives one way or another.

They see the world in black and white. Since they really are like spirits from another world they see the great in people and they see the faults in people. They are always reliable to people and will be their owners' second mind without a second to waste. They are animals who see right through everyone's souls.

They see the world from down below. They look up to everyone to move along. Most of the time we think we guide them along the path. Although they lead the way whether we want them to or not. They help us make the most minor decisions. Whether it's to walk straight ahead or turn or chase them down the streets. Dog are such great leaders. That is a quality that I admire greatly.

They know how to survive. When they're on their own they know what it takes. If it means that you eat out of the trash so you don't go hungry they will do that. If it means you have to find shelter at night they will. If they have to run away from the dogcatcher when they want to take you to the pound, they will run until their legs won't run no more. They survive anything life has to throw at them. That is a great quality that most of us don't have. We are too much comfortable in our surroundings to be stripped of it then to be expected to survive.

The last reason why I would want to be a dog for a day is because theyare here for just the simple things in life. They look for love and mostly find it. They can give you the puppy dog look and get away with things. Most importantly they get to lay around most of the day and get to ponder in their own thoughts about life around them.